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Apr. 24th, 2008
Chinese Vacation
Apr. 24th, 2008 01:20 pmI'm sure it's a temporary thing, but getting closer and closer to graduation is causing me to have fits over the future in regards to my schooling and degrees. I feel trapped. I know this feeling very well. My family and friends think I seem to live in a 1.5 year cycle. About every 1.5 years I need drastic change in my life. If I had the room, I'd be constantly rearranging the furniture every couple of months. At work, specifically previous work at the YMCA, I would get bored and antsy after about a year and be craving something different.
There's a reason why I went off and learned how to fly a plane. There's a reason that I changed majors so many times. There's an underlying reason as to why I keep sticking it out in AI after all this time. But damn if I don't just want to run away right now. Get away from the paper, get away from the research, go back to being a normal person that doesn't spend all day theorizing over the nature of being. Instead, just go and be. I miss exploration. The last trip I took was with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
smokedamage when I met up with him in Seattle and Vancouver and Whistler. I want to go play and get out of this little hole that I feel like I'm in.
I think this is a good thing. Craving for the senses versus lack thereof. Although, I wonder if it's just a feeling of wanting to run away. Is there really a difference?
EDITED because I are an English-hating fool when I'm typing out an idea too quickly.
There's a reason why I went off and learned how to fly a plane. There's a reason that I changed majors so many times. There's an underlying reason as to why I keep sticking it out in AI after all this time. But damn if I don't just want to run away right now. Get away from the paper, get away from the research, go back to being a normal person that doesn't spend all day theorizing over the nature of being. Instead, just go and be. I miss exploration. The last trip I took was with
smokedamage when I met up with him in Seattle and Vancouver and Whistler. I want to go play and get out of this little hole that I feel like I'm in.I think this is a good thing. Craving for the senses versus lack thereof. Although, I wonder if it's just a feeling of wanting to run away. Is there really a difference?
EDITED because I are an English-hating fool when I'm typing out an idea too quickly.
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Apr. 24th, 2008 02:07 pm
I hope that at some point in my future I will be enough for someone.
EDIT: I hope that one day I am enough to be the central/primary person in someone's life and vice versa. I don't want to play second fiddle to someone else. Perhaps that is a very selfish attitude to take, but maybe I'm just a very selfish person.
EDIT: I hope that one day I am enough to be the central/primary person in someone's life and vice versa. I don't want to play second fiddle to someone else. Perhaps that is a very selfish attitude to take, but maybe I'm just a very selfish person.
Afternoon Tea
Apr. 24th, 2008 03:39 pmDark Mayan Chocolate flavored instant coffee
Madagascar Vanilla Bean Truffles in dark chocolate
resisting the urge to add a little bit of cheesecake into the mix
Madagascar Vanilla Bean Truffles in dark chocolate
resisting the urge to add a little bit of cheesecake into the mix