Random Update

It feels good to take a break from reading LJ every so often. However, it feels horrible when a week or two have gone by and you wonder what you've missed and then realize how many posts you actually HAVE missed.

I doubt I'll be catching up on the reading any time soon, and I'm fairly certain that it will get further behind before I ever think about really reading again.

I'm actually excited about working on and finishing my thesis now. The concepts I'm writing about are starting to solidify enough that I'm ignoring how much I hate the template in order to actually concentrate on the content.

About Time

I have to comment that the organizing company my mom and I have seems to be absolutely typical. We were in the red for the first 3 years and last year (yr-4) marked the first year that not only did we profit for the year, but the profit was enough to cover previous debt. I can officially say I own a successful company, at least for now. Of course, I still haven't paid myself a cent from it and even if I did I would be lucky if it covered a single month's worth of rent, but whose counting? My biggest concern is getting it successful enough that my mom is able to organize full-time and quit her current job. That would rock. Baby steps.

Decisions, Decisions

Do I start planning and plotting to apply to grad schools in the fall for admission the following fall (2009-10 academic yr), or do I apply to UT-Dallas and take enough courses in computer science to qualify me for a second BS, looking at most likely 1-2 years worth of night courses but culminating in a CompSci degree?

I really wish someone would pay me to go to grad school. It's what I really want more than anything, but I'm so damned scared of those rejection letters or worse, the idea that I'll have to continue working full time while also trying to do full time at grad school. (I have no freaking clue how sollitaire pulls it off while also raising a child, and as such I worship the ground she walks on.)

I wish I weren't such a lazy person who enjoys having free time to myself.

Comfortably Numb

I'm back in that place again.

It's a great place to be.

Back in the cocoon.

Back into the chamber of non-emotion.

I'm keep telling myself I'm comfortable here, because it's the only thing that seems to last.

See my info page as a reference.

This is the home I keep coming back to.

I keep trying to venture out, but I'm never allowed to stay out for very long.

The Silent Hill Prison video I linked earlier seems quite fitting at the moment.

On to the next round.