trickykitty | Chinese Vacation

I'm sure it's a temporary thing, but getting closer and closer to graduation is causing me to have fits over the future in regards to my schooling and degrees. I feel trapped. I know this feeling very well. My family and friends think I seem to live in a 1.5 year cycle. About every 1.5 years I need drastic change in my life. If I had the room, I'd be constantly rearranging the furniture every couple of months. At work, specifically previous work at the YMCA, I would get bored and antsy after about a year and be craving something different.

There's a reason why I went off and learned how to fly a plane. There's a reason that I changed majors so many times. There's an underlying reason as to why I keep sticking it out in AI after all this time. But damn if I don't just want to run away right now. Get away from the paper, get away from the research, go back to being a normal person that doesn't spend all day theorizing over the nature of being. Instead, just go and be. I miss exploration. The last trip I took was with

smokedamage when I met up with him in Seattle and Vancouver and Whistler. I want to go play and get out of this little hole that I feel like I'm in.

I think this is a good thing. Craving for the senses versus lack thereof. Although, I wonder if it's just a feeling of wanting to run away. Is there really a difference?

EDITED because I are an English-hating fool when I'm typing out an idea too quickly.