Today Can Fuck Off and Die
Feb. 14th, 2011 05:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
trickykittyI faced the loss of a friendship today that has me in tears. I really just want to go and curl up into a ball and cry.
I called the house to see if my mom might want to go out with me to the Mongolian Grill. I could really use the company.
I found out that my grandmother's hospice was denied, because although she is terminal, can't even hold a water bottle on her own because of her medications, and is in too much pain to move, she is not "critical". The home health nurse is only getting paid for 3 hours a day, and is even volunteering extra time beyond that, sort of, because she keeps flaking out even on her regular schedule because of her own scheduling conflicts. In the meantime, I just found out that my mom has been staying over there since Friday - just after her own back shots were administered, which means she's trying to take care of my grandmother all on her own while trying to keep herself from having to get back surgery again.
My sister can't help, because she and BD2 have to go to NA meetings. That leaves dad watching the three boys.
Mom wants me to come out and see my grandmother "soon, like really soon", so I am going to go over and relieve her for a couple of hours until either my flaky sister or the flaky nurse gets there. Dealing with one loss is painful enough as it is, but to have to also face my grandmother's impending death at the same time - help me.
I called the house to see if my mom might want to go out with me to the Mongolian Grill. I could really use the company.
I found out that my grandmother's hospice was denied, because although she is terminal, can't even hold a water bottle on her own because of her medications, and is in too much pain to move, she is not "critical". The home health nurse is only getting paid for 3 hours a day, and is even volunteering extra time beyond that, sort of, because she keeps flaking out even on her regular schedule because of her own scheduling conflicts. In the meantime, I just found out that my mom has been staying over there since Friday - just after her own back shots were administered, which means she's trying to take care of my grandmother all on her own while trying to keep herself from having to get back surgery again.
My sister can't help, because she and BD2 have to go to NA meetings. That leaves dad watching the three boys.
Mom wants me to come out and see my grandmother "soon, like really soon", so I am going to go over and relieve her for a couple of hours until either my flaky sister or the flaky nurse gets there. Dealing with one loss is painful enough as it is, but to have to also face my grandmother's impending death at the same time - help me.
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