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trickykittyI don't feel like dumping my brain here, but there's such a lot going on in there. All negative. All flubbery and depressy. All full of confusion and emotion and cat litter. I doubt that laying it all out on the table will do anything to make me feel better or any more resolved towards some definitive action, but what good is a blog if I can't type up a bunch of emo shit upon occasion?
Every single time I try to make a decision or display an action it's always the wrong one, or at least ends up feeling like the wrong one. It doesn't seem to matter what it is or what it's regarding. Everything that I say I end up regretting, if not right at the moment that it fumbles out of my mouth, then the next day when I'm stuck ruminating over the consequences of what was said.
This is the worst head space to be in. Self doubt plaguing every moment and only adding to the self-hatred and depressed mode of living.
I really need to get blissfully drunk. It's the only thing that I've found to make that awful voice in my head SHUT THE FUCK UP.
Every single time I try to make a decision or display an action it's always the wrong one, or at least ends up feeling like the wrong one. It doesn't seem to matter what it is or what it's regarding. Everything that I say I end up regretting, if not right at the moment that it fumbles out of my mouth, then the next day when I'm stuck ruminating over the consequences of what was said.
This is the worst head space to be in. Self doubt plaguing every moment and only adding to the self-hatred and depressed mode of living.
I really need to get blissfully drunk. It's the only thing that I've found to make that awful voice in my head SHUT THE FUCK UP.
