I have to say
Apr. 16th, 2008 03:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
trickykittyI am soooo looking forward to this evening. I'm hoping that I'll finally be able to really relax after all of life's obligations I've been dealing with this week. Two to three weeks ago, things looked otherwise peachy, but this week has me all manners of stressed and deeply depressed. There's this big gaping hole that no matter how much I fill with dirt just won't go away. I'm still smiling but sometimes it hurts.
The goal tonight - get a nice happy buzz without drowning myself in alcohol. I have to keep reminding myself of this goal because quite frankly I really feel like getting sloshed to the point that all of the rest of the world would disappear out of my brain.
Considering that I've smoked way too much during this past wonderfully destructive couple of days, I really should try my hardest to avoid more nicotine. That's going to be amazingly difficult considering half the folks I'm going to see tonight smoke.
The goal tonight - get a nice happy buzz without drowning myself in alcohol. I have to keep reminding myself of this goal because quite frankly I really feel like getting sloshed to the point that all of the rest of the world would disappear out of my brain.
Considering that I've smoked way too much during this past wonderfully destructive couple of days, I really should try my hardest to avoid more nicotine. That's going to be amazingly difficult considering half the folks I'm going to see tonight smoke.
