Apr. 17th, 2008
I keep having morbid thoughts like, "What if I was diagnosed with terminal cancer and had only a couple of months to live?"
How would I spend my time? What would I do differently that I'm not doing now? What regrets would I have? What regrets would only be there if I had a known shorter life span versus it not currently being a regret simply because I believe that there's still more time available? It's like when I tell myself that only time can tell, and so it's not a regret yet because of the belief in the existence of a future me that will learn that ultimate truth.
I hope this thought doesn't shadow it's way into my dreams tonight.
How would I spend my time? What would I do differently that I'm not doing now? What regrets would I have? What regrets would only be there if I had a known shorter life span versus it not currently being a regret simply because I believe that there's still more time available? It's like when I tell myself that only time can tell, and so it's not a regret yet because of the belief in the existence of a future me that will learn that ultimate truth.
I hope this thought doesn't shadow it's way into my dreams tonight.