Maybe, Who Knows?

[trickykitty]

Do I deserve [something]?
Am I worthy of [something]?


"Deserving" something is such a self-centered way of looking at things.

It's not my place to determine if I do or do not deserve something in the future. That's not up to me to answer. If I try to make a determination for myself it only serves to put those egotistical expectations out into the universe, which start to play havoc with the reality of the situation.

Should an event occur, good or bad, then I can look back and make a self-judgment of whether or not I deserved what I got.

Did I really put in the effort that I should have, or did I skid by on the skin of my nose?
Did I do everything in my power to prevent it?

That's where self-improvement lies. Sometimes, though, good and bad things just happen, regardless of our actions. The goal is to just accept that it happened and move on - don't dwell on the Worthiness Judgment too much unless it's to foster positive change. Focus on becoming worthy in the future, not on previously being unworthy.