Woe Is Me

[trickykitty]

I hate my job. I know it like the back of my hand, but I absolutely despise it.

Why can't I ever be content to stay somewhere? I manage to put up with something for about a year and then I just get completely bored. I have to move on. Some people find this strange in me because I tend to be so damned patient and amicable.

I miss flying. I still don't want to be a pilot.

Maybe I should take up cooking. When I was looking at schools I was going back and fourth between the pilot school and a culinary school. Obviously pilot school won out in that decision.

This can't be healthy for my long-term retirement outlook.

I keep thinking that I need to stop and figure out who I am. Maybe this is it, though. Maybe I'm destined to throw myself into the flames on the regular occasion.

This place is killing me slowly.

I miss myself sometimes. Now is one of those.

Comments

Re: Or maybe you're just having a bad day

[trickykitty.livejournal.com]

I just realized that something you said might be the cause of a lot of my anxiety.

I'm not sure that I've ever really finished anything in regards to school. I've been going at it for so long. It's like a prisoner who has been stuck in prison society for so long (imagine a sentence of 20 or 40 years) that he would prefer to just stay in prison than to have to go out and face the changing world.

Re: Or maybe you're just having a bad day

[40hex.livejournal.com]

So don't go out and face the word - become an academic and stay a student forever. I'm trying to coax isotripy down this path at the moment; she's just finished her honors and is applying for the PhD program.

The business world sucks majorly; especially coming from an academic background - I never ceased to be amazed at the corners that are cut in business. In university (especially mathematics) everything has to be done properly, rigorously. In business everything has to be done profitably - profit, profit, profit, and doing things properly is a distant third after doing things politically (office politics is appalling sometimes).

From my point of view as a mathematician this offends me - I'll go to my boss and say "this is the way it should be done" (properly) and he'll say "Yes, but this is the way we're going to do it because it will save us X dollars" (profit). Then a year later it will all implode and have to be done again because it wasn't done properly the first time, but in the meantime it's kept the stock price from plunging for another year.

Right business decision, but my lecturer would have failed me.