Slowing Down
There are so many thoughts and emotions flooding my system right now. It doesn't help that I'm PMSing.
This is me.
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The bank accepted the other offer for the house. That's probably best, because apparently the house has foundation issues, something that I don't want to deal with whatsoever.
The realtor is rearing to go and look at more houses with me. I'm definitely ready for a house, but right now with these heightened emotions going on, I'm too likely to make a bad decision. I'm thinking about taking a couple weeks off from house hunting just to give me time to get my head on straight.
I'm not in any HUGE rush. I could use the extra time to add more to my savings. I've already starting training myself to go home for lunch, eat more leftovers and sandwiches, and not spend so much money going out. I'm not 100% successful, but I'm not one to go cold-turkey on things either. Remember, I don't believe in going ON diets, but instead just making small changes to my current diet. The same holds true for my spending habits.
I know that moving out now will significantly hinder my finances. I've wanted a house since my teens when I first started buying dishes for my own place even though I was still living with my parents. I never wanted to rent, ever, so the fact that I'm still renting now annoys me. I'm starting to feel claustrophobic and I'm worried I'm going to start getting more and more bitchy as a result. I don't want to do that to my friends. I feel like I'm in a race for time without meaning to be.
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We didn't get our bonus checks at work this month because of low sales. I'm so frustrated at a couple of the techs. I know we didn't have a lot of calls last month, but I also know when certain techs aren't doing the job the way that they are supposed to be doing it in order to try and encourage sales. I don't budget for a bonus check, but I was hoping to get one to help cover the cost of the dining table I bought. It's not like I'm hurting for money because of not getting the bonus, but it does suck that I didn't get it.
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Speaking of job, I mentioned before my work frustrations. Yeah, that's not helping my mood one bit. I feel a bit like I'm in a downward spiral right now. I'm searching for the rope so that I can decide if I want to hang myself or use it to crawl back up. Haven't decided yet. (That's a joke.)
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I may be emotional, but I'm a natural survivor. I really don't know how to give up. The answer to, "Are you going to be okay?" is always, "I have to be." It may take a little time, but I'll get there.
This is me.
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The bank accepted the other offer for the house. That's probably best, because apparently the house has foundation issues, something that I don't want to deal with whatsoever.
The realtor is rearing to go and look at more houses with me. I'm definitely ready for a house, but right now with these heightened emotions going on, I'm too likely to make a bad decision. I'm thinking about taking a couple weeks off from house hunting just to give me time to get my head on straight.
I'm not in any HUGE rush. I could use the extra time to add more to my savings. I've already starting training myself to go home for lunch, eat more leftovers and sandwiches, and not spend so much money going out. I'm not 100% successful, but I'm not one to go cold-turkey on things either. Remember, I don't believe in going ON diets, but instead just making small changes to my current diet. The same holds true for my spending habits.
I know that moving out now will significantly hinder my finances. I've wanted a house since my teens when I first started buying dishes for my own place even though I was still living with my parents. I never wanted to rent, ever, so the fact that I'm still renting now annoys me. I'm starting to feel claustrophobic and I'm worried I'm going to start getting more and more bitchy as a result. I don't want to do that to my friends. I feel like I'm in a race for time without meaning to be.
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We didn't get our bonus checks at work this month because of low sales. I'm so frustrated at a couple of the techs. I know we didn't have a lot of calls last month, but I also know when certain techs aren't doing the job the way that they are supposed to be doing it in order to try and encourage sales. I don't budget for a bonus check, but I was hoping to get one to help cover the cost of the dining table I bought. It's not like I'm hurting for money because of not getting the bonus, but it does suck that I didn't get it.
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Speaking of job, I mentioned before my work frustrations. Yeah, that's not helping my mood one bit. I feel a bit like I'm in a downward spiral right now. I'm searching for the rope so that I can decide if I want to hang myself or use it to crawl back up. Haven't decided yet. (That's a joke.)
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I may be emotional, but I'm a natural survivor. I really don't know how to give up. The answer to, "Are you going to be okay?" is always, "I have to be." It may take a little time, but I'll get there.