Name Game

[trickykitty]

I can completely relate with how smokedamage finds it strange always being called "Smokey" as that is not his name nor was it ever a name for him back home.

I have grown accustomed to a couple of individuals upon occasion referring to me predominantly by a nickname, but it was only a very small portion of folks, meaning only 2-3 people at the most. Nikki has in the past always been used as one such nickname, just as I am quite used to my sister calling me Nic. If she calls me anything else it sounds funny. However, Nikki was never a persistent name. I began using it online to denote my "online personality" rather than coming up with something completely different and foreign. It helped put me into a certain mindset which in turn would flavor my online words and actions in a certain manner.

I never really thought much about it until meeting more and more people who began actually knowing me as Nikki. The strangest thing that I have come to notice recently is that due to the use of this name as now my most predominant name, that online personality seems to have taken control of a large portion of my real life actions and thoughts. Introspectively speaking, I don't feel like myself. I know that I am all one person and that both the real life and the online life are all aspects of the same being, but I am just starting to feel like I've been living someone else's life, and it doesn't feel quite like "me". I just find this realization odd.

Comments

[sclerotic-rings.livejournal.com]

So what is your real name? I thought Nikki was your given name, because you never gave any indication to suggest otherwise.

[tagancalera.livejournal.com]

I believe it is Nicole...or Bielzebub...not sure. >:)

[trickykitty.livejournal.com]

Heehee, it's Nicole. As I mentioned, I've become pretty used to everyone who knows me know calling me Nikki. A long time ago, back in junior high, I was really tempted to change it, but one of my best friends (whose given name was Nikkol) went by Nikki all the time. It's because of her given name that we all adopted the "kk" spelling of Nikki, instead of Nicky. Ocassionally people would call us Nikki Squared if we were right there together, but otherwise I was always Nicole and she was always Nikki.