Not exactly what I meant, but I appreciate the personal insight.

Just been having extremely terrible nightmares the last few nights, of an entirely different caliber/theme than the usual nightly ones, and I keep waking up with an overwhelming feeling of loss and misery, but at the core is an entirely unfamiliar feeling of peace and relief, of "I can stop worrying about/hiding from that now."

Wondering if that means I'm on the right track or my brain has just found a new way to fuck with me under the circumstances.