Put Me Out Of My Misery

I thought I was having another anxiety attack earlier on my way home from work at 7pm. The pain through the sternum and back area that feels like someone has thrust a 2x4 straight through my torso has not let up. I've taken two Valium, 4 ibuprofen, and 3 shots of alcohol. No effect whatsoever. It hurts so horribly that I'm considering the ER - at 12:43 in the morning. I can't sleep from the pain being so bad, yet I'm absolutely exhausted. I was going to try to get as much sleep as possible and then go first thing in the morning to see the chiropractor, but it's the first Saturday of the month and he doesn't have office hours on those Saturdays. I've already thrown up once because of the pain and I'm in tears and trying my damnedest to stay relaxed.

Yeah, I feel like calling an ambulance when I have the anxiety attacks, and this time is no different except that the pain has lasted well past the typical 30min-1hr that I normally experience.

Have I mentioned that I loathe having to go to the ER?

And...

I hit post, went to the kitchen to try to eat something, as I didn't have dinner, took two bites of some rice and decided that was a bad idea. I sat on the zorbee bean bag thing for less than a minute when I had sudden massive pain and had to dodge into the bathroom to throw up.

I'm not doing well.

Thank Fuck

I was finally able to officially go to sleep some time around 3-4am, and I just woke up briefly and currently can't feel that same pain. There's a lot of soreness, but so far not the major pain. I'm still worried it will come back, but in the meantime, I'm going back to sleep.