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Calling Anastasia
Jul. 19th, 2008 04:00 pmI had a strange fascination with the Grand Duchess Anastasia after watching a made-for-tv movie about a woman's claim to the title. Later, when I was a bit older and fell in love with classic movies, I of course came across the more well-known movie starring Ingrid Bergman and Yul Brynner. From this earlier movie I became fascinated with one particular embellishment added for the sake of Hollywood romance: that Anastasia would get the hiccups when nervous.
I only became fascinated with this little detail because of the fact that I also get hiccups when I get nervous, but not just any nervous. It's more of a deep-seated nervous. Like there are things so far out of my control, so many things on my mind, that I just can't keep up with it all. They only show up when I simply cannot put my thoughts and fears into words. As long as I can pinpoint the source of my worry, then there are no hiccups. If I add lack of sleep into the mix and additional stress levels, I get an eye tic, which I know to be pretty common among folks in the same situation, especially when cramming for finals, but not the hiccups.
I mention this because last night I had uncontrollable hiccups just as I was going to bed. The past few nights have been horribly restless and it took downing a Benadryl (also needed due to dust allergies acting up) just to get to sleep. Today, the eye is acting up. There are so many thoughts and issues in my mind. So many things I wish were different right now and that I feel utterly powerless over.
Incidentally, I had not heard the recent news of the confirmation of the death of Ana until just now while reading the Wiki entry on her. Good to know.
I only became fascinated with this little detail because of the fact that I also get hiccups when I get nervous, but not just any nervous. It's more of a deep-seated nervous. Like there are things so far out of my control, so many things on my mind, that I just can't keep up with it all. They only show up when I simply cannot put my thoughts and fears into words. As long as I can pinpoint the source of my worry, then there are no hiccups. If I add lack of sleep into the mix and additional stress levels, I get an eye tic, which I know to be pretty common among folks in the same situation, especially when cramming for finals, but not the hiccups.
I mention this because last night I had uncontrollable hiccups just as I was going to bed. The past few nights have been horribly restless and it took downing a Benadryl (also needed due to dust allergies acting up) just to get to sleep. Today, the eye is acting up. There are so many thoughts and issues in my mind. So many things I wish were different right now and that I feel utterly powerless over.
Incidentally, I had not heard the recent news of the confirmation of the death of Ana until just now while reading the Wiki entry on her. Good to know.
