My Emotional Tantrum - No Fair

There are so many people in this world of whom I am jealous. I'm not talking about major celebrities. I'm talking about people I know, friends and family and co-workers and acquaintances. I know that the reasonable thing to do is realize that the grass is not greener on the other side. I hate that I don't feel like crying because of anything bad in my life. Instead, I feel like crying simply out of pure jealousy. I feel like crying out of some high level of self-pity that I can't seem to have any control over.

I feel alone in my feelings.

I miss feeling happy.

I hate feeling cheated for the results of my choices.

I hate feeling cheated for who I am and how I was raised and where I lived and the experiences (or lack of) that I have had.

I hate having these horrible emotions when I'm not even PMSing.