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My final project from my neural networking class keeps pestering my brain (along with the ten million other things that I would also like to be working on, like learning a couple of languages and programming). I keep hearing the words of my professor that I should take my drawing concept and attach it to the various brain regions as well as work on the mathematics of it. It's an unfinished project as I left it merely a broad concept on paper. It's the foundation of all that I would like to work towards in the arena of artificial intelligence.

I feel like I have whatever the neural networking version of writer's block would be. I no longer have my biological neurology book as it was loaned to a fellow student and never returned. $150 book. I need to see if I can reach her and get it back, but my phone is dead at the moment and who knows if I'll remember by the time I get home tonight.

This is the first time that I've apparently quit something yet I can't seem to get away from it. Accounting, physics, flight school, music major - they've all gone the way of the dodo, but this one project is stubborn as hell. I feel like I have to finish it, but at what cost? When I work on this stuff I start to forget that the rest of the world exists.

I think I'm scared of ever really succeeding at anything.

Why, why, why...

...must people include half of a song as part of their voice mail/answering machine message?

And why, oh why, must it sound like wailing banshees?


PS - ooohhhh, the sound of thunder makes my spine tingle - happy sound