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I fell asleep crying last night. It really came out of nowhere like a ton of bricks. I'm too stressed about everything and I'm internalizing it too much I think. I absolutely cannot wait until the next week and a half is done and I am moved finally. So far the only stuff I've packed has been the result of my mom and sister forcing my hand on the issue. When moving into the apartment originally I packed everything one day before I was scheduled to move, of course then the moving company screwed everything up and I had to wait an additional day. I liked the rush of just getting everything all packed up at once, not stopping, and then being moved very quickly. I don't do well living out of a box. I have been spending many late nights with friends because I just don't want to be in this apartment by myself. Right now just needs to hurry up.