My Beautiful Topaz

My kitten is dying. Topaz is really not a kitten though. She's around 15 years old and at this point is a senior citizen. She still looks like a kitten because she's so petite for a cat. I think she must have been the runt of her litter. I named her Topaz because when we got her we already had a dog named Diamond (who had to be put to sleep many years ago) and given that she is a yellow tabby, the name was fitting. She's still at my parents' house because I'm not allowed to have pets in this apartment. Besides, after living so many years in the house I didn't want to cause her stress last year when I moved knowing how old she was and everything. The sad thing for me is that she knows I'm the "mom" even though she loves my mom just as much. She's known for following me around the house when I'm there and almost always greeting me at the door when I come over. She has the personality of Misha (disgruntledgrrl and koed's cat). She hates strangers with a passion, tolerates my sister and nephew, bugs the crap out of my dad by sitting on his lap even though he's the one who yells at her the most, and will always hang out in my or my mom's lap.

She's having kidney/liver failure. She's not eating and mom has been taking her to the vet about three times a week for fluids. She started off weighing around 7 pounds. She lost 1 pound in one week and according to yesterday's weigh-in has lost another 2 ounces since Saturday. I woke up this morning crying from a dream I had about her. I hate having to go through this. She's very special to me and I already feel bad that I can't have her with me or be there more right now. I'm going to try to spend a lot of time at my parent's house. I want to see my kitty.

Work Woes

fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck

Did I say fuck? What I really meant was FUCK!

Apparently my old sign-on to my work server was in conflict with my new sign-on. The old sign-on had no permissions and the new sign-on only had permissions as long as the computer wasn't shut down. So a week and a half later after working quite frantically getting things updated, entered, changed, etc., someone shut down the computer, the sign-on reverted to the old one and all data, forms, databases, you name it, have been eaten by the gremlin in the server. All work lost. So along with now having month-end reports due next week, I have a week and a half's worth of work to re-do.

Did I mention that my McNair paper is due on Monday, we are moving my grandparents into an Alzheimer's facility this weekend, my cat is dying, and the apartment is a mess?

*curls up in a ball on the floor*